Our vocation is not simply to be, but to work together with God in the creation of our own life, our own identity, our own destiny….To work out our identity in God.
― Thomas Merton
This quote came to me as an answer to prayer. I had come across a Bible verse that spoke about the need to deny ourselves in order to follow Jesus. And I, rather foolishly, started worrying (instead of praying straight away), that I was spending too much time on a pursuit of self-awareness.
I soon realised this fear came from faulty wiring during my early Christian experience as a newly converted teen in a fundamentalist setting. I remembered to pray and shortly after I turned to the Spiritus Abbey FB Page for a message. That’s when I stumbled across the quote above, right at the top of the page.
Jesus want us to be whole as individuals, so that we can better reflect God’s love out into the world in our own unique way. He doesn’t want an assembly line that spits out identical Bible thumpers or ‘holier than thou’ people who shrink God for others. He wants us to be all that we can be so that others feel free to be all they can be.
When we are new in the faith (or when we return after having absconded), it is easy to start looking around for someone else to model ourselves on in order to fit in. I wish, oh how I wish!, preachers and vicars would warn people of this pitfall and encourage them to instead listen daily for God’s guidance about how to bloom into the full beauty of their own being.
Your being is such a gift from God to the world, blessed child of the One!
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
– Psalm 139:14
The Tarot is one of the best tools there is to help us bloom and work out our identity and destiny. It helps us peel away the layers of the ego, as well as lift the veil between worlds. When done prayerfully, it is one of the precious and sacred works you can undertake.
We must not get stuck there though, looking forever inside. We are in this world for a reason: other people. We must act on what we learn about ourselves, our gifts and limitations and then use what we have learned so that we can better serve God in the world. The good news is that we need not wait to serve until we are whole or ‘completed’ (Gr. teleios, wrongly translated into ‘perfect’ in the Bible.) We can trust in God’s perfect guidance every step of the way and know that when we wish to be there to alleviate the suffering of another, She is there with us, through the Holy Spirit.
May today be a day of perfect balance. May your path be illuminated from on High. May God’s love continue to complete you in every way and may you be a blessing to everyone around you.